sometimes i deceive just for fun
i wear a mask of youth and innocence
i play the part of the ignorant and naive
i stand in the position of the wallflower.
i interact, i speak like everyone else
but must of all i listen and react
i run with the script that has been written already
i say the right things with impeccable timing
as though it is natural instinct.
Dear friends, my real identity is unimportant to you
It is sad when we recognize that this is the human condition
we are all the same, puppets of a stage
when the curtains close, puppets we remain.
I am young. I am not what you would call “smart”. I have average IQ, I’m in early-mid twenties, and like everyone else around my age, working towards getting an actual job that pays.
I decided to go back to school mainly because everything requires extra training these days. However, school is expensive, so in order to pay for school, I tutor English on the side.
Everyday, I see myself wondering if I am really THAT old. I’m not. I remember when I was in high school, what the work was like, and now I look at what kids are doing, and I wonder, what has the educational system done to the children? I find myself frustrated. In a country in which English is a first language, how is it that native speakers are writing like people learning English as a second, third, or fourth language? Not only is the problem in the grammar, but also the content itself. At an early age, we are taught to think logically. If the stove is on, don’t touch it, or you’ll burn yourself. If you know you’re gonna lose money, don’t gamble, you’ll have nothing left. If you try to convince someone of something, why is your point valid? Those are all second nature/instinctual to me and many others like me. However, as I am teaching, I do not even know where to start because the standards in which kids write and communicate have been lowered so immensely.
Understandably, the parents are at fault as well. Teachers are afraid of hurting the parents’ feelings by telling them their kid is not up to the standards of what everyone should be.
I remember distinctly that in the primary and junior grades that the focus was not teaching kids how to type, but rather teaching them to write and communicate properly. We were able to write out our good copies, it had to be about something at a certain length. When I was in grade 5, I was writing stories. Kids nowadays are required to write paragraphs, with the information given to them. We had to go to the library, get the books to find information, and write out 2 pages of information and present it to the class.
Those were the things that really made us learn, and I feel that with the advancement of technology, the values of learning have declined. Technology has made children lazier, and then they grow up unable to communicate their thoughts and ideas. They end up lacking creativity and the ability to demonstrate that they understand the learning material beyond what they see on the surface. Schools need to stop concentrating on obtaining the newest technology for their students and focus on ways to get children to learn and participate beyond the bare minimal. Parents need to start saying no, and siding with the teachers who tell them their kids aren’t good enough. They need to start working together as a team to get kids out of that sluggish, lazy trend we call technology. It’s not helping them. A cat could turn on an ipad, it’s not a special skill to have. But to write, communicate, and develop intelligent thought and ideas - that’s education.
I really don’t, and in fact, i feel quite flattered by it.
If somebody calls me a bitch, it means that my words and actions have had enough impact to affect someone. It means that my speech, my communication is powerful. It means that I won. Generally, people would say I’m a bitch only after I said something terrible, or did something that they “did not approve of”. If I cared about what those kinds of people approved of, then sure, I might be upset… but i don’t.